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Louder Than a Bomb

Louder Than a Bomb

A big question I tend to ask myself is am I ready.Today we watched a short slam poem in class from a young poet in a documentary known as "Louder Than A Bomb" In this clip a young man slams about breath and taking one. The skit to me is all about staying calm because it doesnt matter you can die right here and now but is it better to die freaked out, or taking a deep relieving breath. Now if I had a nickel for every time I felt overwhelmed by this quarter and the coming ones in class, I could probably pay off my student loans.

Do I think I am ready, one would think after 3 years of this I would feel as confident working on this as I did on helicoptors for four years in the military. That is not the case. To be honest I don't think I am ready at all considering I have not finished all of my graduation projects that are needed. I feel completely overwhelmed by no sleep, anxiety, pain, and my genuine fear of failure because I am not good enough because in all reality at an entry level I am not good enough. 

However is it a bad thing that I feel this way. I do not think so, personally just as many artists here at this school think I will never be good enough to get to the level I want, because that level is unobtainable just as Da Vinci said a painting is never finished it is only abandoned. So no it is not a bad thing that I feel as though I am not ready or not good enough because that will make me strive more. The only thing I worry about is a heart attack at 24.

conventions to go to

Conventions to go to

1. CTN Expo

2. The Amazing Las Vegas Comic Con  June-19th- June-21st 

3. Future Insights Conference June-1st- June-4th

4.Wizard World next year

5. Sabakon September 5th- September 7th

career goals

In 5 Years

To the question of what my goals are for my career in the next 5 years I must say that I have always had career goals and many of them have been completed recently. First of all one of my accomplishments career wise is an animation that I am working on with a small collaborative team of five. The animation will total out at about 2 and a half minutes and on this project I am the head 3D modeler as well as texture lead, I am doing the post production work,  and lastly the audio work. This alone proves my versatility as well as skill, if not to anyone else than at least to myself.

My current goals happen to be finishing my bachelors of science degree in Animation and media arts and soon starting my tattoo apprenticeship. I would love to be a tattoo artist and to achieve this is high on my list of priorities. Not only is it a fantastic job but what is better than leaving a piece of yourself on people all over the world to carry. 

Honestly I have been evaluating my next job opportunity with this tattoo apprenticeship for a while. I started one a while back and it fell through forcing me to have to do it again. I love tattooing and I have to say that I think it is my dream job. When considering all that I have done I would say in the next five years I see myself doing tattoos at a fair priced shop. Who knows maybe own one at some point.  I do not think that is an impossibility by any means.

deeper meaning of Whatever Works

 deeper meaning of Whatever Works

In viewing the film Whatever Works I saw few similarities between how I feel about my future career and how I may go about it. One of those similarities being starting off confused and slowly becoming more involved with knowing myself and what I would like to do. Like the character of the mother I started off in the animation field picturing working on games or actual 3 D work. Much like how she thought she enjoyed being a house wife. I often looked at my life in confusion and to be honest still do but my goals have changed.

I no longer know if I want to be an animator or a modeler. Frankly my goal now, much like the main character, is to expand my horizons. Have found during my school experience that I like to do advertising, visual effects, and 3D modeling and materials. However I still lack the confidence in being absolutely positive that this is what I want to do. In fact much like the main characters lack of commitment to her Christian views I have a lack of commitment to animation. I am not sure I want this, more so it may be on the back burner for a while. 

Lately what I have found myself wanting to do for a living is become a tattoo artist. A lot like the character in the film I enjoy self-expression, I relish in it to be honest. And I feel that my talent would best be served in a different way than what I originally thought. Granted with the opportunity I am looking at at the moment I would be doing both what I go to school for and what I want to do. Taking all of this into consideration I have to say I am a lot like this main character. I am slowly finding myself in and out of my field.

            Now as for the tweets, I would say I really don’t see many similarities to what they have to do with the movie but that is a personal perspective. However on the note of what would I do for my dream job? I would say anything but that implies way more than I am actually willing to do. However what I will say is that for my dream job I would do as much as I possibly could. Would I sacrifice those I love absolutely not. Would I sacrifice my family… Well maybe my mom’s side. However no I probably wouldn’t. Would I sacrifice money? Yes I would, not a huge amount but a feasible amount. If I went from 18 dollars an hour to 11 for the price of doing what I love I would say yes in a heartbeat. 

            However a lot of us never get the opportunity to do what we love and I am not ignorant to this fact. Even she, in the film was not able to do what she loved until her life in a sense hit bottom. To be honest she didn’t even know what she loved however in the end she did. I think the film tries to say search for what you love in people and work at any cost. However in my opinion it should be at any reasonable cost. The film is definitely decent I cant help but feel a certain annoyance when it comes to the characters but that is neither here nor there.

            I guess I have a lot of thinking to do.

swingers deeper meaning

Swingers Deeper Meaning

                The movie swingers has a deeper meaning than the romantic comedy that plays along the surface. The movie seems to have an example of setting up your career goals and what they should be. Now while I think the movie also plays more to the romantic comedy factor, well I think that it plays more so towards the relationship factor, there is a interesting play on career goals which is very simple. You need to put forth the effort.

                I say this because of the ending. By the end of the movie the main character meets a girl who makes him forget about all his past experience and who happens to be an entertainment lawyer. Now for an aspiring actor and comedian he definitely could use her as a source. Then he gives her his business card to write her information down on and she comments on it. It seems like they made it very pertinent that she noticed what was on his card.

                Now personally I think the meaning of the film extends more so for life rather than just a business sense. I say this because he doesn’t feel that his life is getting better until he finally lets the past go and strives to take it for himself. You will not get a job, you will not get the girl you will not get anything that you do not reach out and work for it. So for the sake of the assignment though I view the meaning of the film to extend to more than business and networking we will say that is all it extends to. However the film did put important aspects on being yourself and ready for anything which are also great ways to look at how you want to place yourself in a business environment.

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I am a visual artist, my goals in my career are  to advance for my benefit and my employers. I have skills to offer and consider myself a Jack of all trades and a master of none. However I believe I can help whoever my employer is with the skills that I have and become close to a master of all and make myself an asset that you will always want on your side.

I am a Multimedia Design Artist with experience in most every field in the pipeline. I have training in 3D modeling, 3D Animation, 2D Animation, Visual Effects, Video Editing, Fine Arts, and Concept Design. I am fluent in using most software including Autodesk Maya, Adobe Creative cloud, Z Brush, and Autodesk Mudbox. As well as using other programs such as Quixel Suites and Substance Designer. I would be a great addition to the company and an asset you would always want by your side.

Experienced multimedia artist skilled at using 3d modeling software, visual effects and video editing software,  digital drawing software, and traditional arts. Hard worker with prior management experience. Good at working in groups and will strive in any position you need me in.